"Where did I go wrong" is a personal account of the journey Sarah Speake has made since her daughter Amélie's unexpectedly early birth and subsequent death, a mere eleven days later.

Her experience has altered the core of who she is irrevocably, and made her re-assess her priorities. This book details the agonies of Amélie's life in intensive care, and the emotional rollercoaster Sarah and her husband Martin have had to endure since.

"I have always been very positive, fun-loving and ambitious, but our experience with Amélie temporarily knocked my self-confidence and drove me to the brink of suicide, hence my decision to write this book. Seeing my story on paper has been a cathartic experience I am now ready to share, in the hope that it helps others understand the hardship of losing a child, which is sadly far more prevalent than I ever realised."

Sarah is now the proud mother of Josh, Amélie's younger brother, and delighted, if predictably scared, to be expecting her third child. Her story is one of hope, survival, determination and love.

A moving account of Alice's brief life and death after weeks of uncertainty, and her mother's healing journey.  

"Lying shaking on the scanning table, I was told the baby inside me had a 50-50 chance of survival. I was six months pregnant. Our baby would either live or die and we had no way of finding out."  

Through their constant visits to the Harris Birthright Centre, Chrissy and Nick decide to do everything they can to maximise Alice's chances, and to make the best of the weeks of painful procedures.  When Alice dies a few hours after her birth, they know that nothing more could have been done for her.

What Chrissy now faces is a journey of emotional and  physical healing. This story takes you through all the emotions of this difficult time: fear, pain and uncertainty as well as laughter and intimacy.  

"This is a very special book and, despite its sad ending, ultimately uplifting."
Ruth Bender-Atik, Miscarriage Association.

"Her prose is vivid and compelling..... an important book for every midwife to read. The immediacy of the writing reminds us of how it feels to be pregnant, of how the words, attitudes or gestures of carers have a massive impact on the women we care for, for good or ill."  Sarah Montagu, Association of Radical Midwives

Leonardo Di Clemente was born on 27th January 2003 and died the following day.  But what an impact he had, and still does have to this day.  He lived a brave, meaningful and special life.  He touched people, the vast majority of whom never even got to meet him.  Some have said that he changed and inspired them.  Others feel that his short life and early death have taught them something.  As far his parents, through all the pain and suffering caused by the loss of their first child, they have somehow managed to believe that life is still worth living, that the good memories will outlive the bad and that grief is not forever but love is.

Leo's father, Mario, has spent the year since his son's birth and death writing about his feelings, looking back in pain but also forward in hope.  The result?  Living with Leo.  "This is a book", he tells us, "about Leonardo Di Clemente and my life with him.  For in in one very obvious way I am without Leo, in so many others we will be with each other forever."

Leo's father, Mario, has written movingly of his experience of prospective fatherhood and the distress of bereavement. Twelve letters written over a year, from a father to his son, tell the story of Mario's life with Leo: of the excitement and anticipation, the grief and loss, and perhaps most important of all, the emergence of strength and hope.

The letters are intensely personal and yet universal too, and will strike a chord with any parent who has had to endure the devastating death of a baby.

Lisa Ruskin was born prematurely with serious heart defects. As her mother Debbie recovered consciousness from the emergency Caesarean Section, she was pressed to give consent to switch off Lisa's life support machine.

She later learned that Lisa's organs had been retained by the hospital. In this sad but ultimately up-lifting book, Debbie tells of her fight to discover the truth about what happened to herself and Lisa, and of her own struggle to overcome her grief.

By sharing her moving story with other parents and with health professionals, Debbie hopes some good will come from Lisa's tragic death.